I'm Back

Wow. I've never seen so many obstacles in my life. Between work, getting horribly sick, and death of loved ones I feel like I've fallen off the Earth. But, I'm back. Just when I thought I was over being sick, it hit me again. I was sick for almost 2 weeks. It was bad. This week I will have to go home to attend a funeral for my best friend's father. Also, I might be making a trip to North Carolina, to see a family member. My great grandmother, my hero, my role model's health is failing. She turned 90 this year... All I can do is try to get back on track. I can't let one trip up stop me from finishing my race. I feel like I'm failing myself already. I don't know how I even made it through the past few weeks. I'm ready though, to start over and do things better.

School work, work...same thing

The weekend went by slow, but not slow enough. Friday/(Thursday night) was awful, I was up all night b/c of family "complications". I didn't get any sleep and couldn't even get up. Saturday, I started my job training. I worked 9-5 both that day and Sunday. I'm exhausted. After class tomorrow i get a 2 hour break, then I work 2-10. I'm pretty excited. I love the work environment. It's going to be an awesome restaurant. So i failed to mention the place is Red Robin. It's going to be great. Everyone come eat. You'll get your money's worth, guaranteed. I've already tested out a few menu items, and they were all spectactular. I can't wait. we open the 30th.

Tired...

Today has been very stressful. I still can't talk like normal. Myabe my voice will be better tomorrow. I'm so stressed right now and I don't know what to do about it. When I went home this weekend everything was so calm, but as soon as I got back I was thrown right back in. Ugh! I just want some rest. I need time to myself. The time I think would be quiet in my dorm never is. You can't sleep at night, in the day?????? OR ANYTIME!!!

Sick on Homecoming/Peanut Festival Weekend

Well, I'm finally back in San Marcos. I got up went to classes and was feeling great except for a little soreness in my throat. Friday, after class I hopped into my car and began my 3 hour drive home. When I finally got there, Momma was waiting on me. I rested for a while, then we took a trip to Palestine, which is 23 miles down the road. No big deal. Right before we reach the city limits, I hear a strange noise. I realize it's my car, so I quickly but carefully pull off onto the shoulder. My mom then got out of the car and did a walk around. My tire was FLAT! O MY GOSH! I was almost furious! I guess it wouldn't be Friday the 13Th without a little trouble. After hours of trying to find the right tool to fix my tire, we were finally on the road again. We ran on errands and rushed home. I didn't want to drive anymore, so mom took the wheel. We got home and I showered and dressed for the Homecoming football game. Wow, a blow out, 52-6. We won! Later that night, I wanted to go out, but something wouldn't let me. My LITTLE sore throat, became a BIG problem. Not only was it hurting, but so was my head, nose, & teeth. To add to that, I couldn't breathe! I was so congested. I stayed in that night. The next morning I woke up at 6:30, dressed, and saddled up. I was going to the Parade, and I was going to ride a horse, and I did! It was so much fun. Over the past years, I've twirled in the parade 3 years, cheered in it 4 years, and road on a pageant contestant float my senior year(which won)! It would just be awkward to watch and not be in it. I loved it so much. As I rode down Main St. friends, family, and people I knew yelled my name! I smiled and waved. I would have spoken, but i had no voice. Then from there, I went to the festival and walked around with family. Then a volleyball game, and back to the festivities! When we were too tired to walk, my cousin (Jim Ed) and I went home to get ready for the Pageant. The pageant was overall good. My pitcher from softball won queen! After the pageant I changed clothes. With my hoodie, a toboggan, and gloves, I went to a party. Sunday was the day of rest. I still couldn't talk like I wanted to. I did some reading and studying while my mom was gone. i waited for her to come home and then I began my trip back to San Marcos. The trip was long. I was alone, and sleepy. I couldn't sing out loud (that's how i usually keep myself awake). When I made it back, I unloaded and now here I am. Still sick... and tired. I'm ready to be better. I hope I don't have Strep Throat. I should be finding out soon when I go to the doctor. So that's it, now I get some more rest!

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

This song seems to identify me at this time. There is another one (Even if i Wanted To, by jason Aldean), but it doesn't seem to cling to me like this one has. If you haven't heard it, you should listen to it. Find it, search it, something. I'm in love with it and the music. Excuse the one bad word.... So here it is...

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room
by: John Mayer

It's not a silly little moment.
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath
Of this love that we've been working on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms


We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw
I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You'll try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Cause you can't understand


We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room


Go cry about it, why don't you?
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
Don't you think we oughta know by know?
Don't you think we should have learned somehow?

Thursday AGAIN??

Wow, time is speeding by. How long have I been here? Am I really a college student? This is kind of odd. I never thought I would see the day, but it is here and my eyes are finally focusing in on life. I love this place. I do miss my family and friends, but I will see them again. This is home now and probably will be for years to come. Isn't it odd? You think to yourself, "Oh, I'm only going away for a semester. I'll be home on weekends." When does it finally hit you that YOU ARE home and going to stay the weekend with Mom & Dad is just another trip down memory lane. You don't realize at the beginning of your first semester that you will be looking at this campus or some other campus for the next YEARS of your life. We tend to only see life that's right in front of us, in short-term prospective. I'm amazed. I won't be doing this only for a few months. It's now my life. I still have this feeling that I'm away at cheerleading camp or something like that. I feel like......"o ya kno I'll be home in a week...See ya then ma'...." But does it ever COMPLETELY sink in? I dunno! I'm trying to grasp reality but my hands are greased down and I cannot seem to find soap.

Sleep, Study, & Stay Occupied

These are the things I generally do. If I'm not sleeping, I'm studying. I find myself doing more of the occupying though. Last night, I had energy because I took a nap finally that evening. I decided to grab my friend Kailea and head to the Rec. Although still dragging a little from the long weekend, we walked up stairs and began to stretch. Okay. We're ready. We ran, lap after lap, 'till we got a phone call. Some friends were going to play volleyball at Sewell Park. WOW, this is so much more fun than running. So we grabbed our things and head back to our dorm. As soon as we returned, I changed into my bikini because I didn't want any good clothes ruined or dirty. We walked to the parking garage, searched all over and eventually found my car on the 4th floor. It seems like it had been a while since I had drove. Maybe it had been? I cannot remember. We headed down to the courts for some serious volleyball action. It was great. Sand, sun, and crazy people. Just kidding about the sun, it was 9:30. I was so tired when we were through I just took a shower and went to sleep. It's now Tuesday and I cannot remember that either. It feels like a Monday or Wednesday to me. I don't really know why. The day has been pretty short. All I have done so far is paid some bills, studied and did homework. I can't wait to do something interesting. Maybe we'll go play volleyball again. I actually want to go to the rec, if i can find anyone who wants to. So if there's any girls or guys that want to go, let me know. I would love to have company!!

My Weekend

Well, the weekends over, and it was a great weekend. It was full of excitement. I went to my friend Kailea's home town. It was about a four hour drive to La Marque. Traffic was crazy. Finally we got to her house and began to get dressed for the football game. We went to the game, and Kailea reminisced on her days of being a high school trainer. In the 3rd quarter, it began to pour down rain. I found shelter, real quick. La Marque won the game, and we went to eat some Mexican food. Tired from the long week of classes, we were ready to go to sleep. Saturday we had a great evening with her family La Brisa. Her family was great. I had so much fun. Later that night, we visited more family, then we headed to Galveston to meet up with Kailea's friends. We slept in Sunday, said our good-byes, then started on our way back home. We sang, quoted movies, and laughed as hard as we could to pass the time. That was how my weekend went. I had so much fun.

Thursday O Thursday

Today I woke up feeling better, at least I can breathe and I'm not spitting all the time. Yesterday I was hit early in the morning with a bad feeling. From that moment on there was no sleeping. I couldn't even lay down to go to sleep. It was horrible. I was sick and it sucks to be sick. I had problem keepin food in my stomach. Gross. Sorry but that's the nicest terms I could think of. I now have this headache but I'd rather have a headache than stomach virus or something. My throat's not as sore but I'm still clearing it constantly. I bet the people who sit beside me in class were extremely annoyed today. I can't help it. I try to clear my throat discretely but that was impossible. Ugh! I hate it. But my headache is not wearing off, so I'm going to do like my mother suggested when i talked to her earlier, and take a nap.

Gotta work it out

When I woke up this morning, I felt worse than any other. My throat was extremely sore and I had no energy. I drug myself out of bed, clothed my body, and went down the hall to brush my teeth. Brushing my teeth was distrubing and made me cough. I won't go into detail. But I kept on until they were good & clean. I gather all my book and notebooks, grab a water, and headed to my class two minutes before 8:00 am. I did my best to stay awake in history, and I think I done very well today. I tried a new style of note-taking because my last notes didn't help enough for the test. I walked back to Elliott, straight to my room, got online and instant messaged my mom for a while before she left for work. I felt tired again, so I put everything away, set my alarm, and fell right to sleep. Before I knew it, it was twelve o'clock and I had Theatre pretty soon. I finally got out of the bed at ten after and brushed my teeth once again. This time it wasn't so bad. This time i poured a can of dr. pepper in a water bottle and scurried out. Ooops, I forgot my Austin's peanut butter crackers. Man I am addicted to those now! I finally got to Theatre 2 minutes late but sat down quietly. This was a very odd class, with plent of drama, especially today. Time flew by and before I knew it, it was over! I'm through for the day! WOOHOO! I came back to Elliott once more and thought about sleeping again but decided to do some Algebra instead. Good thinking! I got that out of the way! I stayed online watching Dave Chappelle Lost Episodes and messaging friends from back home. Eventually 5 rolled around and I went to Jone's (Mmmm Mmmm, just kiddin) to get something to eat. Nachos were my choice of the day. It was also my first time to eat them too. They weren't bad, but the lady got distrcted by other orders and left them in the microwave to long. they could've been better, ya kno! Well since then I have been working on more homework and doing my reading. I feel accomplished today. I plan to read, re-type notes for better undestanding and then go work out at the rec! What an exciting day! Nothing special but hey, I enjoyed doing nothing for a change!

Wow, what a day! I don't think I've accomplished anything. Did I even shower? ha ha. Well I had an awesome weekend in East Texas, back at home. I watched my home football team come back to pull off a great victory. I loved it. My and a friend sat in the stands and jumped up and down. I never seen the game from this perspective before. I had always been on the track cheering. For the past five years, I watched when I wasn't in the middle of a cheer, from the sidelines. I liked it but missed the cheering! SO BAD! UGH! High School: those were the days. Easy work, easy everything, except the small town drama! But isn't that everywhere? I got a laptop this weekend, and I love it so much. Now I can do my work in my room. I haven't even left my room because of this thing. I have been organizing, and personalizing all day! I should start doing my homework right now. I have another stressful day ahead of me and I need to stay focused.

My week

Wow. What a day! I know I'm behind but sometimes this crazy blogger will not let me sign in. I think it doesn't like me. I feel accomplished. I've been doing pretty well on keeping up with assignments and studying. I hope it stays that way.
I'm really excited this week because I get to go home on Friday. I haven't been home since my first day here. I cannot wait till the high school football games, getting my hair cut at my favorite beauty shop, and most of all having mom do my laundry! ha ha. woohoo! I just have to say it again. I'm so excited! I'm ready for mom to take care of me for the weekend! ha ha!
Well that's about it, gotta do my math!

My Day-Weiner Wednesday

Wow. I started today off on the wrong foot from the moment I woke up. I woke up eaxctly at 8. I was supposed to be in English at 8. I was really upset. Somehow my alarm was set for 7:30 PM!!!!!!!! I guess I shouldn't stay up so late studying. I get dilusional. Well it's my mother's birthday and I wish I could be there with her to celebrate. It really sucks. But there is one thing I'm looking forward to tonight. It's Weiner Wednesday. It's the second official meeting of the group. ha ha. It's not bad. It's just on Wedneday night, me and a group of people walk to Seven-Eleven and get two hots dogs for $2.16 and a free Dr. Pepper! YUM! Cheap, easy, and dinner. ha ha. Well it's about that time. I have to go get food!!!!!!!!!!

Hmmmm. What a day it has been. There's so much to do but no patience to accomplish anything. Besdies that, my time management is horrible. History, Theater and English to read, Algebra to do, and the online services are down. Why tonight? On a good note, I had some IHOP tonight. Nothing's better than pancakes! I'm very comfortable, and would be great if I didn't have so much to do. O well, it's a little thing called life. I try to keep my focus, but weekends get me so off track. I don't know where to start but I have to get on the ball.

okay, maybe I just made a liar out of myself. When I sign out of this, I can never figure out how to sign back in. It always tells me my e-mail is not correct? Is it just me?

Wow. This blog stuff can be really confusing if you're a first timer. I think I have finally figured it out. Although I have messed up along the way, I hope that I did it like it's supposed to be.

Classes ended at twelve. I was starving so I went back to Elliot to meet the guys. I say the guys because that's the main group of interesting people. The girls are great but not so fun. We walked to Jone's and had greasy quesadillas. Mmmm, Mmmmm. After we sat for a while we returned to our home. Opening my door, smelling the hospitally cleanliness, but noticing the overflowing pile of clothes from my closet floor, I realized I needed to do laundry! So I went in the packed wash room and waited for hours. Finally after getting them done, I threw them in my room and took the time to find my friend Kailea. We went to Wal Mart and spend way too much money on food, snacks and drinks. Not too long after we returned, the rest of the Elliot guys had fired up the archaic grill and began on the fiesta de pollo. Now I'm sitting here at this lonely computer wondering should I associate myself with the gang at th hotel party. Debating... I'm not sure. I think I'd rather shower. OK. time to go........

PEANUT FESTIVAL

Yo EVERYONE!
Every year during our Homecoming weekend, my town has an annual Peanut Festival. This coming October will be the 61st Celebration! It's the weekend of October 13th.

CARNIVAL
Things starts the Thursday before with a wristband carnival night. It's about 10 dollars to ride anything all night till closing time.

HOMECOMING
Friday is when the excitement arrises. The first big sign of the weekend's activities is the Homecoming Pep Rally. It's not all that great but hey, IT'S TRADITION! Friday night will be the big homecoming game which isn't big really b/c we're only 1 A.

STREET DANCE
Following the game Main Street will be taped off for a street dance. Everyone gathers to listen to music and socialize with the rest of the community and visitors.

PARADE
Go to sleep early because Saturday morning will be the Penut Festival Parade. All kind of characters will show their faces. O yeah, you will get your first glimpse of the Peanut Queen Contestants on their "theme selected floats". It's great! (I'm proud to say I particpated in this last year and won 1st place for my Dick Tracy & Tess Trueheart float!)

THE FESTIVAL
Saturday is the day you go to the park for the festival. Ride rides, play games, roam the park, listening to some bands, and most importantly EAT! Every year I get the corn on the cob. It's seasoned to perfection and so sweet! I wouldn't miss that for the world! My friend Courtney would hurt me if I didn't suggest you try the food from the Baptist Church. I think it's the turkey legs she raves about.

PEANUT QUEEN PAGEANT
After you've worn yourself out, you go home, bathe and get ready for THE PAGEANT! About 5 high school senior girls compete for the title in categories such as; Street Wear, Evening Wear, Talent, On-stage Interview. It's a great coornation and did I forget, there are plenty of acts in between to keep you on the edge of your seat. The queen is crowned!!!!!!!!!!! The Festival is pretty much over then.........So if your are interested in BIG fun in a little town, let me know. Come on, it's not a holiday???????? And it's good to try something new. Although I should warn you, Grapeland is 215 miles away, and if you plan on staying the night, I suggest Holiday Inn Express in Crockett on Loop 304. It's about 12 miles from Grapeland. I will be leaving that Friday after class is over at 12 pm.


If you are interested let me know. Pageant tickets are are available for pre-sale and are more difficult to purchase at the door. It's not that big of an auditorium/theater so seats are limited.

It's exciting! So if you have nothing to do and want to see what East Texas tradition is like, I invite you. Grapeland will embrace you as their own and would love to have you.
I wouldn't lie to you!!!!

If ANYONE is interested, comment me.... I would love to share my little town with Texas State!

Classes ended at twelve. I was starving so I went back to Elliot to meet the guys. I say the guys because that's the main group of interesting people. The girls are great but not so fun. We walked to Jone's and had greasy quesadillas. Mmmm, Mmmmm. After we sat for a while we returned to our home. Opening my door, smelling the hospitally cleanliness, but noticing the overflowing pile of clothes from my closet floor, I realized I needed to do laundry! So I went in the packed wash room and waited for hours. Finally after getting them done, I threw them in my room and took the time to find my friend Kailea. We went to Wal Mart and spend way too much money on food, snacks and drinks. Not too long after we returned, the rest of the Elliot guys had fired up the archaic grill and began on the fiesta de pollo. Now I'm sitting here at this lonely computer wondering should I associate myself with the gang at th hotel party. Debating... I'm not sure. I think I'd rather shower. OK. time to go........

Ok I'm sittin here, finally discovering how to create this blogroll. I think I have 3 different URLs. I hope that everyone is looking at this one and not the old one. If so that'll really be messed up!