I'm Back

Wow. I've never seen so many obstacles in my life. Between work, getting horribly sick, and death of loved ones I feel like I've fallen off the Earth. But, I'm back. Just when I thought I was over being sick, it hit me again. I was sick for almost 2 weeks. It was bad. This week I will have to go home to attend a funeral for my best friend's father. Also, I might be making a trip to North Carolina, to see a family member. My great grandmother, my hero, my role model's health is failing. She turned 90 this year... All I can do is try to get back on track. I can't let one trip up stop me from finishing my race. I feel like I'm failing myself already. I don't know how I even made it through the past few weeks. I'm ready though, to start over and do things better.

School work, work...same thing

The weekend went by slow, but not slow enough. Friday/(Thursday night) was awful, I was up all night b/c of family "complications". I didn't get any sleep and couldn't even get up. Saturday, I started my job training. I worked 9-5 both that day and Sunday. I'm exhausted. After class tomorrow i get a 2 hour break, then I work 2-10. I'm pretty excited. I love the work environment. It's going to be an awesome restaurant. So i failed to mention the place is Red Robin. It's going to be great. Everyone come eat. You'll get your money's worth, guaranteed. I've already tested out a few menu items, and they were all spectactular. I can't wait. we open the 30th.

Tired...

Today has been very stressful. I still can't talk like normal. Myabe my voice will be better tomorrow. I'm so stressed right now and I don't know what to do about it. When I went home this weekend everything was so calm, but as soon as I got back I was thrown right back in. Ugh! I just want some rest. I need time to myself. The time I think would be quiet in my dorm never is. You can't sleep at night, in the day?????? OR ANYTIME!!!

Sick on Homecoming/Peanut Festival Weekend

Well, I'm finally back in San Marcos. I got up went to classes and was feeling great except for a little soreness in my throat. Friday, after class I hopped into my car and began my 3 hour drive home. When I finally got there, Momma was waiting on me. I rested for a while, then we took a trip to Palestine, which is 23 miles down the road. No big deal. Right before we reach the city limits, I hear a strange noise. I realize it's my car, so I quickly but carefully pull off onto the shoulder. My mom then got out of the car and did a walk around. My tire was FLAT! O MY GOSH! I was almost furious! I guess it wouldn't be Friday the 13Th without a little trouble. After hours of trying to find the right tool to fix my tire, we were finally on the road again. We ran on errands and rushed home. I didn't want to drive anymore, so mom took the wheel. We got home and I showered and dressed for the Homecoming football game. Wow, a blow out, 52-6. We won! Later that night, I wanted to go out, but something wouldn't let me. My LITTLE sore throat, became a BIG problem. Not only was it hurting, but so was my head, nose, & teeth. To add to that, I couldn't breathe! I was so congested. I stayed in that night. The next morning I woke up at 6:30, dressed, and saddled up. I was going to the Parade, and I was going to ride a horse, and I did! It was so much fun. Over the past years, I've twirled in the parade 3 years, cheered in it 4 years, and road on a pageant contestant float my senior year(which won)! It would just be awkward to watch and not be in it. I loved it so much. As I rode down Main St. friends, family, and people I knew yelled my name! I smiled and waved. I would have spoken, but i had no voice. Then from there, I went to the festival and walked around with family. Then a volleyball game, and back to the festivities! When we were too tired to walk, my cousin (Jim Ed) and I went home to get ready for the Pageant. The pageant was overall good. My pitcher from softball won queen! After the pageant I changed clothes. With my hoodie, a toboggan, and gloves, I went to a party. Sunday was the day of rest. I still couldn't talk like I wanted to. I did some reading and studying while my mom was gone. i waited for her to come home and then I began my trip back to San Marcos. The trip was long. I was alone, and sleepy. I couldn't sing out loud (that's how i usually keep myself awake). When I made it back, I unloaded and now here I am. Still sick... and tired. I'm ready to be better. I hope I don't have Strep Throat. I should be finding out soon when I go to the doctor. So that's it, now I get some more rest!

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room

This song seems to identify me at this time. There is another one (Even if i Wanted To, by jason Aldean), but it doesn't seem to cling to me like this one has. If you haven't heard it, you should listen to it. Find it, search it, something. I'm in love with it and the music. Excuse the one bad word.... So here it is...

Slow Dancing In A Burning Room
by: John Mayer

It's not a silly little moment.
It's not the storm before the calm
This is the deep and dying breath
Of this love that we've been working on
Can't seem to hold you like I want to
So I can feel you in my arms
Nobody's gonna come and save you
We pulled too many false alarms


We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room

I was the one you always dreamed of
You were the one I tried to draw
How dare you say it's nothing to me?
Baby, you're the only light I ever saw
I'll make the most of all the sadness
You'll be a bitch because you can
You'll try to hit me just to hurt me
So you leave me feeling dirty
Cause you can't understand


We're going down
And you can see it, too
We're going down
And you know that we're doomed
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room


Go cry about it, why don't you?
My dear, we're slow dancing in a burning room
Don't you think we oughta know by know?
Don't you think we should have learned somehow?

Thursday AGAIN??

Wow, time is speeding by. How long have I been here? Am I really a college student? This is kind of odd. I never thought I would see the day, but it is here and my eyes are finally focusing in on life. I love this place. I do miss my family and friends, but I will see them again. This is home now and probably will be for years to come. Isn't it odd? You think to yourself, "Oh, I'm only going away for a semester. I'll be home on weekends." When does it finally hit you that YOU ARE home and going to stay the weekend with Mom & Dad is just another trip down memory lane. You don't realize at the beginning of your first semester that you will be looking at this campus or some other campus for the next YEARS of your life. We tend to only see life that's right in front of us, in short-term prospective. I'm amazed. I won't be doing this only for a few months. It's now my life. I still have this feeling that I'm away at cheerleading camp or something like that. I feel like......"o ya kno I'll be home in a week...See ya then ma'...." But does it ever COMPLETELY sink in? I dunno! I'm trying to grasp reality but my hands are greased down and I cannot seem to find soap.

Sleep, Study, & Stay Occupied

These are the things I generally do. If I'm not sleeping, I'm studying. I find myself doing more of the occupying though. Last night, I had energy because I took a nap finally that evening. I decided to grab my friend Kailea and head to the Rec. Although still dragging a little from the long weekend, we walked up stairs and began to stretch. Okay. We're ready. We ran, lap after lap, 'till we got a phone call. Some friends were going to play volleyball at Sewell Park. WOW, this is so much more fun than running. So we grabbed our things and head back to our dorm. As soon as we returned, I changed into my bikini because I didn't want any good clothes ruined or dirty. We walked to the parking garage, searched all over and eventually found my car on the 4th floor. It seems like it had been a while since I had drove. Maybe it had been? I cannot remember. We headed down to the courts for some serious volleyball action. It was great. Sand, sun, and crazy people. Just kidding about the sun, it was 9:30. I was so tired when we were through I just took a shower and went to sleep. It's now Tuesday and I cannot remember that either. It feels like a Monday or Wednesday to me. I don't really know why. The day has been pretty short. All I have done so far is paid some bills, studied and did homework. I can't wait to do something interesting. Maybe we'll go play volleyball again. I actually want to go to the rec, if i can find anyone who wants to. So if there's any girls or guys that want to go, let me know. I would love to have company!!